In thirty or more years, God willing, I'll be in a position to know with absolute certainty the answers to the Big Questions I've tried so hard to ask, much less answer. Equipped with a somewhat 'changed' perspective, I'll probably wonder why some of this stuff had me so worked up.
I see your response in #46.
I too look fwd to the day when many of Gods mysteries will get answered....thats a healthy curiousity. Where I have difficulty with your writing is in the area of your doubting the scriptures, or calling those that take it literally, simplistic and absurd.
I have much less time than that!
These same questions, doubts etc. have been around since the Church was born, and have been asked and answered debated every generation sinse.
You'd be suprized how well they are answered in the books written by the fathers of the church. One of my favorites are St. Augustine of Hippo. A great mind. You can find alot of his work online here:
http://www.newadvent.org/fathers/
There are many others as well.
Enjoy that time you have, you might have enough of it to read all of them, LoL!