Dear Houmatt, place your trust in the Lord. He does not assign burdens too heavy for us to carry. If the load nonetheless seems crushing, ask Him to help you carry it. You never know, but in the end much good may come from what now seems so irredeemably bad and difficult for you. I'll be praying for you and your wife. God bless each of you, and by His Light and Grace lead you to His love, truth, and peace.
Amen Betty boop!