Oh it isn't hard at all to identify the reason you feel that way. It's called hypocrisy.
Please, this is unconfortable thinking like a Yankee, torture....
Then by all means return to your Southron mindset which doesn't require you to think at all. Wouldn't want you to hurt yourself.
Explain how you justify "preserving" the Union using black powder and lead, how perverted and sick is that YANK. At least other barbarians didn't bother with making hilarious excuses to justify their invasions.