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"no offense but i really doubt you ever took illegal drugs...trully... "

Yeah, that's right, you caught me. I make stuff up to give what I say greater impact and the authority of experience. 'Trully'.

Yeesh. I won't give a laundry list of drugs I have done--you hear people do that sometimes when they're sharing in the Program and it sounds like a perverse kind of bragging. Let me put it this way: Cocaine was my thing, along with alcohol. But listen: I was the kind of addict who wouldn't smoke crack cocaine because that would've made me, you know, a crackhead and I wasn't going to be a crackhead, no sir. And I wouldn't stick needles in my body, either, because that's what junkies did and I wasn't a junkie, no way.

I look back on that kind of thinking now and just cringe.

I started doing drugs and alcohol because I had an undiagnosed mental illness, and drugs and alcohol seemed to do for me. Drug and alcohol abuse exacerbated the mental illness, hence the divorce, the joblessness, the homelessness.

Whether you believe me or not is your affair. I have a little more than five years' continuous sobriety: what others believe or don't believe no longer gets under my skin--at least not so much as it once did.

well that's good! thumbs up! and what helped you to get rid of this addiction...sorry for the personnal questions but i am curious from nature, it may seem as the opposit of a quality, but hey! however if you do not answer i won't blame you! we are not in a chat room after all! but i am curious about your story! and also, did you go to jail? if not do you think that helped you get rid of your addiction? if you were caught with coke and went to jail, do you think it would have helped you kick the habbit? and sorry if i said that you never took drugs, the way you were speaking about pot let me think you never tried it though! things are not so foggy as most people think under the influence of this "drug"! if you did try it though i believe it was laced with something that left you bad memories of it, the current problem of the black market, no control on what is and will always be available...

that's a good thing i am not living in your country though (or the USA if you do not live there!) because my curiousity would have brought me to jail!