There you go, putting words into my mouth...I never, ever said that you were a grief to me...stop feeling so sorry for yourself...
Actually, I find your posts enlightening...I hate it when anyone gets banned or any post gets eliminated...because I like to see what that person is like, and their posts reveal much about them...so you can post away as much as you like, and it certainly does not cause me any grief, or any such thing...
It just reveals much about you...
Indeed, posts can reveal much. And--it can be fun to delve into archives. But you seemed upset, so I offered an explanation. I'll try to lose the self-pity.