I am probably not the only one who may be beginning to get the impression that your parents are overprotective. Maybe you prefer it that way. And I don't say this to be insulting, I simply mean that I think you both might benefit from some separation time, so that you can exercise your wings, and they can learn to let you.
I think you would benefit from spending some time away at school, almost any kind of school. It would probably matter less what you studied, than that you lived apart for a while.
After a year or so, you could move back with the folks if you wanted to, and you could interact on a more adult level with each other. None of my business, of course, but you tend to come across as a plaintive waif, and I think you're actually stronger than that.
I often complain about not doing anything. Noone listens. I
never got to complete my education. I had finally convinced
my mom to let me leave that... school (torture chamber is more
like it) & we had planned to have me homeschooled my senior
year. The books were never bought, so I never got started. I
was resigned to the fact I'd need my GED... NOT what I wanted.
I was sent to classes, but made it there less & less till I didn't go
at all. I haven't gone for my GED. As I've mentioned before, I'm
also told I don't need a job. I can't drive, no license... not even a
permit. My parents are helping my brother & can't afford me. I
have no friends to turn to. My best friend is at college in Vt & has
her own parents to deal with (her own mom told her she never
wanted her... nice people). She had offered to let me stay with her
if she didn't have a roommate, but she was paired with one this year.
The only guys around are... they're just idiots. A certain guy I really
care about moved away. His parents have been urging my dad to
look for a job near them, but he's just waiting for one to fall from the
sky. They moved in February & it's the end of the year. An offer just
hasn't presented itself. I'm really lonely & anytime my mom or I mention
moving to my dad he gets rude & hisses at us. I've broken down in a fit
of tears twice in two or three days over all this & more. It doesn't matter.
I even told mom I just wanted out, just gone. I heard the same thing as last time.
Yeah, I wouldn't mind disappearing for a while, but I don't see it happening.