There's a good chance you hallucinated this week without ever knowing it

Inverse ^ | October 11, 2019 | By Jack Barton on

[Silentgypsy]

Thank you.

[Monkey Face]

What a precious brand new Morning Floof!!

Good morning.

I slept in, darnit, then had to hurry to get my shower so I can get the tea down me. I try to take it every twelve hours. I don’t know how that’s going to work over the next few days, what with my schedule being at the mercy of my son and his other family.

[Tax-chick]

Good morning. I was about half an hour later than usual. I was dreaming about committee meetings. *sigh*

[Monkey Face]

I’m exhausted, and I need to put on my Big Girl Panties and suck it up for the next four days. Unngh. I can see the relapse building from here.

[Tax-chick]

Try to think positively and enjoy the events.

[Monkey Face]

I don’t know why I posted that because I wasn’t done. Not a good sign!

I will start my letter to Charlie today, because I don’t know how I’ll be feeling come Friday, since I have no idea what the plans are. The “celebration” revolves around me, but no one has consulted me in what I want to do. They just went ahead and made plans. I think I mentioned this yesterday. But what I want to know is, can they DO that?? :o|

So. Today, I’ll empty the vacuum cleaner and do the rugs and sweep up the Gonzo feathers. Yesterday, he actually “cheeped” once. I think he’s also off his feed as he doesn’t look as hefty as he was. I hope he doesn’t mourn himself to death.

[Tax-chick]

Poor Gonzo.

And good luck with the weekend.

[Monkey Face]

I just went in to put a clip in my now-shorter hair to get it out of my face and I realized I can’t change a thing about what’s coming in the next few days, so I need to stop thinking about it.

CFIDS causes me to overthink everything. Ya know? I thought, once I had gotten out of therapy for the anger caused by CFIDS, that I would be able to accept my life for what it is. But the truth of the matter is that I still find myself thinking I’m that same person who moved to Vegas in 1989, and I’m not. Not even close. Some days I see part of that Me and other days, she’s nowhere to be seen.

So I’m going to ask you and the other regular Undeaders to either ignore me when I say stupid stuff or remind me that the stuff I’m saying is stupid.

I’m asking that because I’m too close to the situation to see it for what it really is.

So please?

[Tax-chick]

I think we just say, “Everyone rattles on sometimes; it’s just life.”

[Monkey Face]

Excellent. I’ll try not to rattle too loudly. ;o]

[Tax-chick]

Just don’t go ALL CAPS on us. That’s really stressful.

[ArGee]

Good morning, everyone. Happy Wednesday.

Can I go back to bed, too?

[ArGee]

Given that the 2 holiday weeks I was 2 days at home and 2 days at the hotel, I”ve been trying to learn to sleep again at the hotel. Last night was actually a pretty good night’s sleep for me.

We’ll see if I can hold on to it.

[ArGee]

Of course they can do that.

Life can also wreck their plans.

Ask any general officer.

[ArGee]

“Everyone rattles on sometimes; it’s just life.”

And as I rattle on in life, I notice the rattling is much louder.

[Tax-chick]

I’m pleased for you! I was cold last night, and I dreamed about committee meetings and woke up with my jaw aching.

[Monkey Face]

...I notice the rattling is much louder.

I was too, and then a few months ago I began taking one of those joint supplements and the rattle in my joints isn't quite as loud as it used to be. :o]

[Monkey Face]

That makes no sense...

[Silentgypsy]

Since you didn’t use the term “night terrors” in your post, I’m hoping that your committee-meeting dream was relatively innocuous.

[Silentgypsy]

Sometimes I post and answer emails while asleep. My family thinks that’s hilarious.