Thirty plus years of the Forever War has eroded my patience for bloodsucking neocons.
Whatever the reason, this is not good for you, personally.
When I was managing systems and projects (pre-retirement) I had to deal with stress reactions like this. Not many tools available to a US employer unfortunately. I would give non-vacation time off when I could, and urge taking no-contact vacations. I could not advise seeing a priest.
Me, I am the master of self control, but I gave myself, probably through stress related excess cortisol release, metabolic disorder, diabetes and a heart condition. Yeah, I couldn’t keep work responsibilities in context either.
But at the core its a spiritual issue.
Bttt