Those who have been answering you have experience on this.
I don’t, but I will say you have taken a very important first step, which is to admit to yourself and to others that you need help and that YOU want to change what’s been going on.
Every purposeful step in that pursuit brings you closer to peace and probably fulfillment as well.
Don’t be afraid to live in the present without something to deliberately dull your senses. This is your world too.
AMEN!