I am truely sorry then for the joke and the situation. I feel stupid for joking. I was in a similar spot with much clearer issues. Infidelity. I chose to leave and it was still very hard. Whatever happens find the joys in your life. Find the joy in your kids. Have faith! You can’t fix other people’s issues and it’s not your fault if they can’t be fixed. You can accept their failings, with or without them in you daily life. Gods speed!
Sorry... sarcasm doesnt translate in text well.
No worries...