Oh I know how painful this is. I had an Australian shepherd named Valentine and how I loved her! I think she was something of a genius and so loyal! I dreamed something happened to her and sure enough it did. Gone too soon.
Later I had a standard poodle named Jazz - my partner...I would have done anything for her to stay. She made it to 15 but it wasn’t long enough of course.
Now I have Paris, another standard poodle - doesn’t take the place of the others but she makes her own place in my heart.
Very cool!