Was this little boy all there was? Or was he a spiritual being? Did he in fact survive death? You indicated you had been Christian. Was he a spiritual being before birth? You may want to have a look at Expecting Adam by Martha Beck.
So, which is it? Is this life not a precious commodity to be fought for, preserved and experienced, or is it something less...a mere speck in relation to the eternity we will all someday confront?