This statement alone demonstrates how much you much more you need to learn about Christianity.
You question the heart of another Christian and whether his/her belief is real and then further exalt yourself to imply that you have special knowledge of the glory of Jesus?????????
You do all this while excusing your off-color comment????? I don't know what type of youth ministry you headed up, but I sure hope you didn't teach as you behave.
LOL - I was too busy leading young people to the Lord to have a lot of time for teaching. That wasn't what I was called to do. And the teaching that I did do, via evangelism, was under the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
The proof's in the pudding, Ms Pawsis.