Skip to comments.I'm childless at 42 and haunted by the baby I aborted at 18
Posted on 04/25/2012 9:37:08 PM PDT by grundle
Once, at a smart wedding in Northamptonshire when I was about 30, someone handed me a newborn baby and my skin broke out in hot hives.
In Brazil, I met a ten-year-old street kid. I fed him, let him sleep and shower in my hotel room, bought him clothes, and felt an overwhelming desire to protect and nurture him.
I had never before felt such a forceful maternal instinct. These events were profoundly physical reactions, both shocking to me.
Just around the time of my trip to Brazil, the ghost of my never-born came back to haunt me. I began imagining what he might have been like a tall and sandy-haired boy, who would have been 17 at the time. I was 35, the age when the experts say your eggs and fertility start declining.
Its embarrassing to reveal these visions of my never-born son, and important to understand their significance. This imagined son was not some moral spectre come to punish me; it was my subconscious reminding me to wake up and face reality.
(Excerpt) Read more at dailymail.co.uk ...
Good thing her mother didn’t think the same way....
“”It would be easy to feel sorry for myself, to reproach myself for my decision to abort the baby I was carrying at 18 or to desperately chase the dream of motherhood at the age of 42.
Instead, I have decided to accept my situation with grace its a hell of a lot cheaper than five rounds of IVF.””
She truly doesn’t understand the purpose of life!
Why shouldn't there be? Despite her whinning she would advise her own god-daughter to abort at 17. The woman has learned nothing at all despite her feelings she cannot have children...there is no guilt there nor shame...just whinning.
That's false. The primary proponents of abortion are the women who have them.
Most are done over the objections of the baby' father.
I doubt it...she writes if her god-daughter got pregnant she would advise her to abort the baby. That pretty much is what a young woman reading this article is going to take from it IMO. ......By her stating that everything else she says goes down the tubes....pun intended.
I feel deeply sorry for this woman. She is still in complete denial and is struggling to continue rationalizing the murder of her baby. The article screams it.
But the truth she knows down deep is trying to come out, that she did an evil act. I hope she can eventually admit her guilt and beg God’s forgiveness for her actions.
Culture is important. IMHO, a 5 year old knows that killing an unborn baby is murder. I still have great sympathy for woman like this because they are victims of a massive active deception that works 24/7 to brainwash impressionable young women that abortion is not murder.
Yes, she is 100% responsible and will be held to account for killing her baby. But I still feel deeply sorry for her and I understand that she was heavily enabled and still is, by this massive evil propaganda campaign.
I pray she repents of her sin and my God have mercy on her.
No, it's not! The shame would be not having enough of a conscience and sensitivity to the Holy Spirit to NOT struggle.
We are all there. We all have been there. We all will be there again.
It's when we get to that place that we throw ourselves on God's grace and mercy be because only He can effect that work in our hearts and souls that needs to be done. None of us are capable of it in and of ourselves.
That's why Scripture says we need to die to self. The sin nature is beyond reforming.
Take it to God. The kind of honesty engaged in when you do that is very powerful.
Philippians 3:12-14 12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
I agree with you. Down deep she knows she did evil and it is killing her. Outwardly, she is clinging hard to all of the excuses and support that the abortion propaganda machine has to offer.
Imagine her guilt as the sea and the aportion propaganda machine as a life preserver. She is clinging hard to struggle not to admit to herself that she murdered her child, and as long as people keep throwing her life preservers, she will keep clinging on to them.
Evil is the abortion industry and its affect.
I hope and pray she is willing to let go of that life preserver and repent of her sin killing her child. You can see the struggle going on inside her and it is killing her. She can’t see it. She manifests it as just wanting another child. That is her mechanism to “erase” the abortion, but she would find a new child would not erase it. A new child would just move the bar to some other need to keep in denial about the evil she chose.
I feel really sorry for this woman. She is going to suffer, and rightly so.
Funny how that works, huh?
Agreed. This article was published in the "Femail" section, and a quick glance at the home page of "Femail" makes that quite clear.
In Syracuse, NY, there's a bill board along the interstate that says, *Abortion increase the risk of breast cancer*.
I have no idea who put it up but thank God for them.
Sad to read this.
IIRC, there are opportunities to adopt girls from the PRC.
And yet someone who was also killed once said, "Forgive them Father, they know not what they do".
Maybe just a little slack is called for, but she is going to have to do her part to receive God's grace.
That absolutely infuriated me, until I realized she is still in denial. The longer she is, the harder this is going to hit her when (if) she finally admits to herself the evil of her abortion. But yes, I was stunned she said that. I was so sure she was going to say she would NOT recommend abortion to her god-daughter, so I was immensely disappointed to read that. Crushing.
Completely missing from this article is the possibility that her abortion is the cause for her subsequent infertility.
“Men not wanting to pay child support are the primary proponents of abortion”
“That’s false. The primary proponents of abortion are the women who have them.
Most are done over the objections of the baby’ father.”
I meant “of the men who want the mother to have an abortion,” the main reason is so they don’t have to pay child support.
Um.. I wouldn’t try to argue nursing home statistics as part of the career woman feminism. Most are simply folks who have outlived their husbands. Not folks who never married.
“I thought the same thing. She never did get that she killed a human being and her life is still all about her emotional comfort.”
Let her get pregnant just once and carry it to term. Then she will get it!
I remember what Darth Sideous said in “Return of the Jedi”
“Young fool... Only now, at the end, do you understand... “
I can think of another quote that might fit a circumstance like that. “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.” I’m sure it would bring it home for her and with some strength and some support she might be able to take that pain and transform it into a real awakening.
Thank you for sharing that.Gives me hope.Never has the truth been so hidden or maligned,all to the detriment of women.
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