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I'm childless at 42 and haunted by the baby I aborted at 18
dailymail.co.uk ^ | April 25, 2012 | KATE SPICER

Posted on 04/25/2012 9:37:08 PM PDT by grundle

Once, at a smart wedding in Northamptonshire when I was about 30, someone handed me a newborn baby and my skin broke out in hot hives.

In Brazil, I met a ten-year-old street kid. I fed him, let him sleep and shower in my hotel room, bought him clothes, and felt an overwhelming desire to protect and nurture him.

I had never before felt such a forceful maternal instinct. These events were profoundly physical reactions, both shocking to me.

Just around the time of my trip to Brazil, the ghost of my never-born came back to haunt me. I began imagining what he might have been like — a tall and sandy-haired boy, who would have been 17 at  the time. I was 35, the age when the  experts say your eggs and fertility start declining.

It’s embarrassing to reveal these visions of my never-born son, and important to understand their significance. This imagined son was not some moral spectre come to punish me; it was my subconscious reminding me to wake up and face reality.

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To: grundle; All
When winds of conscience waft about thy head,
And brooks of rue do babble in thy brain,
Seek not thy quietude in lonely bed,
Nor utter careful words to stay thy pain.
For though words, chosen well, may ease the smart,
And turn the wretched, hateful wrong to right,
Alas! In sooth, they cannot touch the heart,
Nor kill Remorse, which flies upon the night,
With Satan, the Accuser, who will steal
Betimes to whisper softly in thine ears,
Of dark deeds done: of rack, of cord, of wheel,
And play upon the pipes of hidden fears.

Thus torn asunder, none shall see thy strife,
Thy spotted hand; thy bloody, dripping knife.


81 posted on 04/26/2012 5:53:21 AM PDT by Mr Ramsbotham (Laws against sodomy are honored in the breech.)
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To: muawiyah

“Some souls are simply lost and they know it.”

However, if we cannot be a light in their darkness, we are in the same boat they are.


82 posted on 04/26/2012 5:55:19 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: tired&retired

The worst of that lot probably consider your efforts to be harassment.


83 posted on 04/26/2012 5:57:19 AM PDT by muawiyah
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To: JRandomFreeper
I'm grateful that when I am old(er) and (more)decrepit, I'll have 2 daughters to care for me in my waning days.

My daughter tells me "You better be good to me, or no cute nurses for you!"

84 posted on 04/26/2012 5:58:23 AM PDT by PapaBear3625 (In a time of universal deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act. - George Orwell)
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To: tired&retired

Every soul created by God has the same seed of Light as it’s center. Some hide it under a basket, some hide it under many layers of stone. If you could see the center of their souls, you would know that there is goodness under all that darkness. If you provide more darkness through judgement, you are not helping them. (When Jesus said you must be like child to know thy Father, He was speaking of the purity of a child’s soul that shines through their eyes.) Even as adults, we can remove the many layers to be pure and to shine as a child. That’s the reason for the halo portrayed by the artists. It’s the Light of the soul shining through.

It is only by using the Light shining within yourself that you can help others raise their dark coverings and realize the joy of their own Light within. This is true even for souls that have passed on and no longer have a physical body.


85 posted on 04/26/2012 6:07:15 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: muawiyah

“The worst of that lot probably consider your efforts to be harassment.”

Yes! A prayerful blessing to an evil person is like placing hot coals upon their heads.

If we allow anger to enter us, and lower ourselves to their level, they have won! Light always wins over darkness.

If there is a closed box on the table in a well lit room, when we open the box it fills with light! The room does not fill with the darkness which was within the box.


86 posted on 04/26/2012 6:11:49 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: tired&retired

People forget the most important person they must forgive while saying the Lord’s Prayer. “Father, forgive us our sins as we forgive those who have sinned against us.” Don’t forget to forgive yourself and allow your soul to be vulnerable, a necessary step to becoming aware of God’s Love penetrating our soul.


This is so true. You have to surrender to your faith in the forgiveness of God and that means forgiving yourself for commiting the sin, too. That surrender of your harsh judgement and fear of yourself shows you trust in the mercy and power of Jesus to wash your sins away.

Satan is called the accuser. He shouts that your sin is unforgivable in an effort to block you from a relationship with Christ and His healing and release from sin.

For most Christians it is a struggle until you understand that the dark spiritual attack is coming once you have repented and been forgiven your sin. When the accuser shouts your unforgivable sin and guilt, you have to tell it that you belong to Jesus and He forgave the sin and it must leave you in His name. The darkness really does flee in His name. You have to address the accuser every time it takes a hit on and lays claim to your soul. It does not own a Christian’s soul and can not condemn it in Jesus. Your soul belongs to Jesus and He’s the boss over Satan. We are in a struggle and it’s not a free ride. The more you struggle, the better you get at recognizing and vanquishing darkness.


87 posted on 04/26/2012 6:19:27 AM PDT by SaraJohnson
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To: PapaBear3625

Your statement “My daughter tells me “You better be good to me, or no cute nurses for you!” makes me laugh.

When I took my 89 year old father who was in severe pain from his cancer to the hospital where we all expected he would pass on soon; As he went out the door leaving the house for what we expected was the last time, he turned to his wife of over 55 years and stated, “Mom, I may not return home as you know that the nurses at the hospital are really cute!”

He did return home as it was not his time. He had told me one year before he died, exactly the day when he would pass. He died Easter Sunday morning at 10:00 am, just when the service was beginning.


88 posted on 04/26/2012 6:22:22 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: rawhide
If I might reply, the woman can rest assured the baby she killed is in heaven. Maybe one day she will come to Jesus and then they can meet there.

Well said.

89 posted on 04/26/2012 6:26:23 AM PDT by DTogo (High time to bring back the Sons of Liberty !!)
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To: SaraJohnson

“Satan is called the accuser. He shouts that your sin is unforgivable in an effort to block you from a relationship with Christ and His healing and release from sin.”

So true, so true! Then he tries to convince you that the light will cause you pain and will kill you, thus you must stay away from it. It’s the great lie from which he obtains his power. The truth sets souls free.


90 posted on 04/26/2012 6:26:38 AM PDT by tired&retired
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To: babygene

-—Excuse me... Since when have husbands and fathers been demanding abortions???——

I used to attend prayer vigils at PP on Saturday mornings. Women were accompanied by either their mothers or boyfriends. About 50-50.

Yes, mothers. Try to imagine that.


91 posted on 04/26/2012 6:29:05 AM PDT by St_Thomas_Aquinas (Viva Christo Rey!)
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92 posted on 04/26/2012 6:31:39 AM PDT by wagglebee ("A political party cannot be all things to all people." -- Ronald Reagan, 3/1/75)
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To: grundle

Dear Ms. Spicer,

Pass the word around to any young people you come across. Let your decision and subsequent consequences be a lesson to any others who might consider this course of action. Join us in prayer at an abortion mill near you.


93 posted on 04/26/2012 6:36:07 AM PDT by Ol' Sox
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To: The_Media_never_lie
To rub salt in the wounds seem to be sport for those who have made no serious mistakes in their lives.

Yes. Yet... There is no one who has made no mistakes. Sometimes people forget that we are -all- sinners, and in the end, all sin is the same before the Lord. Nobody gets credit for needing a little less forgiveness than the next person. In this story I see a woman in the process of waking up to a reality she's been blind to all her life. That's something to celebrate.

94 posted on 04/26/2012 6:43:03 AM PDT by Ramius (Personally, I give us one chance in three. More tea anyone?)
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To: kearnyirish2; georgia peach

And our culture is encouraging the fertile young women not to marry, but to sell their eggs.


95 posted on 04/26/2012 7:15:43 AM PDT by thecodont
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To: babygene
Since when have husbands and fathers been demanding abortions

Well, boyfriends -- maybe impregnators would be a better term -- then.

IIRC, polls show that more men support unrestricted abortion than women.

96 posted on 04/26/2012 7:24:36 AM PDT by Tribune7 (GAS WAS $1.85 per gallon on the day Obama was Inaugurated! - - freeper Gaffer)
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To: babygene
Since when have husbands and fathers been demanding abortions

Well, boyfriends -- maybe impregnators would be a better term -- then.

IIRC, polls show that more men support unrestricted abortion than women.

97 posted on 04/26/2012 7:24:46 AM PDT by Tribune7 (GAS WAS $1.85 per gallon on the day Obama was Inaugurated! - - freeper Gaffer)
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To: babygene
Since when have husbands and fathers been demanding abortions

Well, boyfriends -- maybe impregnators would be a better term -- then.

IIRC, polls show that more men support unrestricted abortion than women.

98 posted on 04/26/2012 7:25:04 AM PDT by Tribune7 (GAS WAS $1.85 per gallon on the day Obama was Inaugurated! - - freeper Gaffer)
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To: tired&retired

What a beautiful way to help someone in need — and to understand that person.

The wound in her soul and being a victim — I’m happy that the lady with throat cancer was able to release that terrible memory.

Well stated! Jesus heals and it’s amazing how a soul becomes unshackled when all that stress and bad memories come to light....


99 posted on 04/26/2012 7:33:59 AM PDT by SilvieWaldorfMD
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To: Tribune7

Easy of the post button... My record is 5 times! LOL

“IIRC, polls show that more men support unrestricted abortion than women.”

Men not wanting to pay child support are the primary proponents of abortion. Out of wedlock pregnancies.


100 posted on 04/26/2012 7:44:04 AM PDT by tired&retired
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