Please pray for me as God brings me to the appropriate place.
To have an effective ministry I have to learn how to shuck off pride and ego. He deserves the glory for what good I can bring forth. He originated it, He focused it. I stood there willing, but sometimes partially unwilling because the pain was so great that I just wanted to damn it all.
But as in gym training, no pain no gain. What we might have seen as senseless torment and ignominy was really the circumstances of spiritual training.
Essential to winning the game is treating it as a “we” game. Christians never solo. Christ called a community to salvation. They have clouds of witnesses and throngs of praying people to support them.
I will pray for you.
It seems like God has given you that gift to use.