Basically, I am a Calvinist. But while I believe that God has foreknowledge of our eternal fate, I cannot accept predestination. God gave us freewill, but he knows how we will use it.
It is a contradiction that I cannot readily resolve, so I just accept it. One day I will ask God Himself about it.
My revelation regarding God came the moment I understood that NO WAY IN MY HUMAN SPIRIT WOULD I CHOSE GOD. It was just not in me. God chose me, I didn’t chose Him.
The second revelation came with the understanding that if I chose God, I ALSO HAVE THE POWER TO UNCHOSE GOD. The is no security of salvation if I do the choosing, I am fickle. But if God choses, His word is good.
So how do you know God chose you? You are hungry for His word. Your life begins to change in many small ways and some big ways.
If you life hasn’t changed, you did the choosing...............