As I indicated previously, ultimately it is God Himself Who takes the responsibility for revealing Himself to those who seek Him--sometimes through His representatives, and at other times directly, as He did with Paul. Indeed, my screen name indicates that very notion. Hebrews 11:6 reads:
Please pardon my presumption here, but I feel constrained to tell you that I think you yourself are, or are becoming, one of those earnest seekers and that ultimately He will lead you into the full truth of His love and provision for you, in a way that you cannot now anticipate, even as I could not thirty-eight years ago, nor could Paul.
I am earnestly seeking G-d, but that G-d is the G-d of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. I can tell you for a fact that I will never become a believing Christian, or a believing anything else - I was born a Jew, and I will die believing in the faith of my Fathers and doing my (very imperfect) best to live up to its highest ideals and practices.
Again, I thank you for your kind words and thoughts - it is genuinely refreshing to NOT read something like “believe as I do, or you’re going to burn in Hell!” Not that I believe in a Hell of that sort, anyway, but I’m sure that you understand that such a sentiment coming from another person doesn’t exactly give me the warm & fuzzies.
G-d is indeed kind and just - after all, He invented those very concepts and inscribed them on our souls. I know with a certainty that every person, myself included, will be dealt with justly (though I would hope that my actions during my lifetime would also make me deserving of some of G-d’s mercy).