Never tested beyond ability, but in my case, often beyond my "want to" or will or faith or belief...something...and then my free will to say no gets in the way.
I think that is the "test" part. We say many things, but we do our truth.
So what I as a student see as a "test" is both a measure of growth and progress and a learning experience as well.
He knows our truth, of course, but humans are incredibly good at self-deception and rationalization.
We sometimes must learn our truth, which we often hide from ourselves as well as we do from others, as revealed by our actions in the "heat of the moment" when our guard is down and we are who we really are.
The "tests" I've failed, so to speak, stay with me and some haunt me, but I learned that I/we should Ask For The Grace Of Compunction, and I know you are absolutely correct saying we gain much compassion through suffering.
The Teacher is very patient preparing us for graduation day. I read this quote today:
"have you not heard, My child, that everyone who loves is one of My Own and knows Me? have you not heard that on Judgement Day you will be judged according to the measure of your love?"Uh oh...I need to learn(?) to feel towards others as you've described in your post-"death" work.
Thank you for your posts and for making me ponder.
Well said.... Thanks for sharing.
“The “tests” I’ve failed, so to speak, stay with me and some haunt me”
You did not fail per se. The test is actually an experience where you are designed to recognize the strength beyond yourself. If you are not pushed beyond your own limits by perceiving failure you would not find your true strength that lies beyond yourself. Thus, your strength is only found in your weakness.