Posted on 02/27/2004 3:53:02 PM PST by please vote bush
Good morning, I guess I may be a glutton for punishment, but here goes. I think I needed to interact with others out of loneliness. Without revealing too much about myself the net became a friend to me when my son was permantly "brain injured" in a horrible car accident...Christmas 1997", the internet became a haven of information I needed, it has been a G-d send.
Our son was in the United States Air Force (Gulf War, for what the damn thing was worth), 1990-93, I apologize for being so cynical. He only had abour 4 months till he graduated the Art Institute of Pittsburgh when he came home for Christmas and has a horrible accident...2 days before Christmas.
I found as a mother of a young man that not only loved this nation but wanted to serve and defend it I needed to find where I fit in too. We live in a beautiful, secludeed country setting, nothing fancy, just very serene and lonely.
I came across FreeRepublic, damn me for being so naive and trusting. I thought I had found a place that had the same values as myself and people that cared and maybe even had something lacking all over this great nation..."Respect" for their fellow human beings..... I could not have been more wrong. There is no such thing as "Respect" anywhere in the world from all I have been reading..my heart aches.
I paid this man money for the privilege of posting on his web-site and would have continued because I absolutely thought the world of the members, even the people that flamed me once in awhile, G-d Bless them, I miss them.
But his "moderator" accused me of "advocating blowing up several nations", In a post about Pakistan and...I think, the nation nearest them. They are, it seems at war with each other. I said that "if our American Soldiers were out of harms way, I did not care if they blew each other up" and this, apparnently branded me some sort of terrorist, and I was warned I would be banned if I continued. So I guess my statement made me a horrible person, an American Terrorists.
Sometimes I don't kmow what to think anymore but I never considered myself a person that avocated needless violence, but FreeRepublic and this Jim Robertson think I am an American that "advocates blowing up several nations"....they don't even know me and didn't even want to know me ....go figure.
A little while later I posted an article...it was nice...had a lot of hits and was going along great, no flaming (finally learned what that meant), but the moderator sent me a nasty "private message" about me "abusing the side-bar, I had no idea what this meant and I appologized and asked "what this meant". I never receieved an answer.
I finally e-mailed this Jim Robertson and explained what had been happening, asked him what this meant. Explained to this man that I tried to get an answer from his "moderators" but I received nothing, even when I did the appologizing. I did receive an answer......I WAS BANNNED!!!
I don't know if anyone here will understand, maybe some will...but I don't know if I will ever trust again....my heart was broken...this Jim Robertson will never understand....Please forgive me...I just needed a place to fit in. I thought FreeRepublic was the place...I still miss that members...G-d Bless them, even the ones that flamed me every now and then...but I do not understand the dictorial behavior of the folks that run that site. I poured my heart to to this Jim Robertson and the next thing I knew....I was banned!!! I will never trust another web-host unless I know this person....personally.
Thank you for this time, don't know if I fit in here either but I thank all of you from the bottom of this mothers lonely heart. This Jim Robertswon is not the only person in America that has experienced "tragidy", pain and heart-ache. I saw what he was experiencing and prayed for him..I guess my prayers backfired. He was very mean and nasty spirited, venditive in a way. But the bottom line...FreeRepublic belongs to him...he can do as he wishes, may he and his followers be very happy with each other. They will never know the good folks they ran away, don't think they will care either, but that is their loss. I wish you could have known our son though, Jim is a very lucky person to be in his right mind, I wish to G-D our son even remembered us. But what the Hell does this Jim care, to Hell with him!!! Please forgive me... I don't mean to be so mean, I wish you could have known me before we lost our son. This damn Jim Robertson understands nothing, he has no compassion or understanding of no-one but himself, there is no one but himself and his followers have proven this, I feel sorry for him, he will be the loser in the end.
Thank you and G-d Bless
Jim's got his rules, but he can be pretty fair-minded. Mom-Grandmother was always a pretty decent poster, unless I'm remembering someone else....
Right. Friday night. Who knew?
Maybe. I know I also crossed the line a lot in those very emotional months after 9/11. Since then, I've done a lot of growing and learning. Yes, we are in a culture Cold War with Islam, and yes it may possibly be becoming a Hot War someday, but right now it isn't, and we shouldn't be posting like it is.
DAMMIT woman.
You've got to stop teasing me like this.
That line broke my heart dear lady. I'm sorry for your loss.
Maybe Jim will let you come back and we can keep you company again. But you'd better get his name right, it's Jim Robinson.
It usually involves almond oil.
And a monkey.
And a vaccuum cleaner.
And lots and lots of alcohol.
And a small alpaca.
And a minivan.
What was her original screenname?
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