I agree on the sad. The “Cynical” moniker came about when I began to have questions about most of what I was taught growing up in a conventional “church”. A very staunch Christian father and mother for sure but when I began to see scriptural error in the teachings of the “church” I became “Cynical” of all I had been taught and began an intense personal study. When I began to take nothing at face value the term “Cynical” seemed to attach itself.
Well, the Pharisees had that kind of problem. They posed and presumed to stand between God and man by their own wills, and Jesus called that out as nonsense.
A revamp of rabbinical Judaism in a Christian flavor isn’t what Christ, what God has in mind, but that’s the heavy tendency of fallen mankind. People are scared of freedom in Christ. It’s almost like the atheists who say what, are you leaning on something you can’t see?