I wasn’t open to it though!
I did nothing to deserve it.
I thanked God Afterwards.
But mom is pretty religious and she did some hard praying.
The Holy Spirit comes into different people in different ways. You don’t know what openings you really have, but God does.
But this isn’t an uncommon testimony. God can bless in you and through you in many ways before you’re aware of what’s happening.
The only eternally hopeless case is the one that refuses the Holy Spirit forever and ever in cold, dark purpose. If there is mere ambivalence, God can get in the door and sort things out, casting out the influence of Satan in stages.
I’d only want to warn that you could go through some stormy waters yet, even some that may have you half doubting. But you will emerge victorious on the other side of it, with what you already went through standing as a symbol of what the complete work will be. God is master of this thing called salvation.