Posted on 08/18/2006 6:58:11 AM PDT by varina davis
E-mails a portrait of 'my darkness' Messages to CU prof paint a disturbing picture of Karr
Text of an ode to JonBenet Ramsey in a 2005 e-mail believed to be from John Mark Karr to CU professor Michael Tracey.
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By Todd Hartman and Kevin Vaughan, © 2006 Rocky Mountain News
August 18, 2006 It was the day before Christmas Eve 2005 when John Mark Karr sent an e-mail to University of Colorado professor Michael Tracey, seeking a strange favor. He asked Tracey to visit JonBenet Ramsey's old house in Boulder and read aloud an ode he called JonBenet, My Love.
"JonBenet, my love, my life. I love you and shall forever love you. I pray that you can hear my voice calling out to you from my darkness - this darkness that now separates us," it read, in part.
The e-mail was part of a small sample of the often lurid and disturbing correspondence between a person that investigators believe to be Karr and Tracey. The e-mails were obtained Thursday by the Rocky Mountain News from a source close to the investigation.
None includes any statements from Karr about his possible role in JonBenet's death. They do, however, include several interesting - and sometimes bizarre - exchanges between the two, including one in which Karr expresses concern that Tracey has obtained a photograph of him; another in which Karr said he was under federal investigation for "child murder and child molestation" in four states; and one in which the two traded views on the Peter Pan-related film Finding Neverland.
Karr was arrested in Thailand early Wednesday on a warrant naming him as the suspect in the unsolved murder of 6-year-old JonBenet in 1996. He is expected to be extradited to the United States next week.
In one of the e-mails obtained by the News, Karr brought up the legal travails of pop singer Michael Jackson, long under scrutiny for what seemed by his critics to be unusually close relationships with young boys.
"I will tell you that I can understand people like Michael Jackson and feel sympathy when he suffers as he has," Karr wrote. He added that he, himself, "is trapped in a world that does not understand."
The News reported exclusively Wednesday that Tracey and Karr have swapped hundreds of e-mails during a four-year span, and that it was the content of those e-mails that gave rise to Tracey's suspicions about Karr's potential involvement in JonBenet's killing.
Tracey, in turn, passed his concerns on to investigators working the case privately. They, in turn, would later take it to prosecutors at the Boulder District Attorney's Office.
Tracey declined to comment on the e-mails obtained by the News Thursday, and a statement provided by a CU spokesman said Tracey would continue to decline interview requests "until he feels the time is right."
"Tracey said it is important now that people respect the judicial process and make no judgments about the guilt or innocence of the suspect until more information is available," the CU statement said.
It also said that Tracey wants to resume writing a book about the 10-year-old investigation and is planning to produce additional documentaries on the case, beyond the three he has already completed.
In a related development Thursday, the Daily Camera reported that Tracey shared details of his research into the Ramsey case with students months before he alerted authorities.
The paper reported former students as saying that someone sent Tracey a childhood picture of himself holding a white Santa Claus teddy bear and purportedly taken on a Christmas morning. The stuffed animal was apparently just like the one that mysteriously showed up in JonBenet's bedroom and stumped the family and investigators.
One of e-mails obtained by the News began with Karr chiding Tracey for failing to respond to an earlier message entitled, "Pretty Little Boy."
That e-mail included what appears to be a back-and-forth exchange - a passage from Tracey and an answer from Karr. However, it appears that Karr took a Tracey e-mail and then inserted his answers after each paragraph.
At one point, Tracey wrote to Karr, "I'm also curious as to why you feel that talking to me is dangerous and that you have shared too much."
Karr wrote back: "I was the subject of at lease (sic) a four-state federal investigation for child murder and child molestation. These people were not finished with me when I left the U.S. I cannot return. Since you have never been through something like this in your own life, you cannot know the paranoia it causes. You mentioned you have access to my photograph after talking to you for at least two years. I have reason to be concerned. Consider, if you will, post-traumatic stress."
A later e-mail included "Resend of Pretty Little Boy" in its subject line.
Again, it appeared to include a back-and-forth exchange.
"This is a letter that was sent on October 10th," Karr wrote. "I have found that you are easily overwhelmed and, when so, you seem to stop responding altogether. That being said, I am also responding to your last mail and will prepare a short message for JonBenet for Christmas night. Please check your mail each day prior to Christmas. Don't stop responding now."
Karr then wrote about his anger that a third person had provided Tracey with a photograph of him. "You NEVER said he HAD a photo of me," Karr wrote. "This changes everything. You have everything but my name and fingerprints. This comes as a major blow. Why did you not tell me this in the past?"
At another point, Karr responded to Tracey's challenge to follow through on his pledge to be "intense and thorough."
"Oh, Michael," Karr wrote, "I was referring to you - not me. I AM intense and thorough. I wanted you to be more intense and thorough in your responses to me. Your desire from me is that I cut to the chase and be specific about locations, names and all the other elements that journalist (sic) look for in a story. I am sorry that this is not the way I express myself about this matter."
Karr wrote later that his father was a "strong influence but rarely around," and then responded to Tracey's question about whether his "fascination with little girls - which clearly has a strong erotic component - is a way of going back."
"Maybe I am not going back but have simply stayed consistent," Karr wrote. "My peer group has not changed since I was a little boy, and girls were the people I was with always. Referring to them as a peer group is somewhat incorrect, but might also be the very definition of what they continue to be in my life."
At another point, Tracey wrote, "You told me once that your mother tended to raise you as a girl. This must have had a powerful effect on your developing sexuality - confusion maybe?"
Karr responded: "Michael, I will not discuss my sexuality as if it is a psychological disorder from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. In my case, I disagree with that totally, and if this is to be the way we progress in discussing it, I might as well stop while I am ahead.
"On the other hand, if you would like to learn something about my sexuality on an intellectual, nonjudgmental, nontraditional and nonpsychological way, I would love to share. It would help you understand a lot about my connection with JonBenet and possibly about the case. Shall we?"
Tracey also wrote to Karr about the movie Finding Neverland, which was about the author of Peter Pan. "I can only say," Karr wrote, "that I can relate very well to children and the way they think and feel. I think you are asking if I am much a 'Peter Pan.' In many ways, the answer is yes. In other ways, I suppose it is no because I am trapped in a world that does not understand."
In his words
• Excerpts from e-mails written by John Mark Karr to University of Colorado journalism professor Michael Tracey:
"I am tortured mostly because of my present situation. I appreciate that you would refer to my childhood. It was unique . . . "
"I will tell you that I can understand people like Michael Jackson and feel sympathy when he suffers as he has. I do think that he is sexually attracted to certain children but could never divulge this. He made an attempt when he talked of sleeping with little boys but was completely misunderstood. I think he made an assertion and quickly had to back down. On the other hand, his comments might have had nothing to do with having the type of sex one might equate with the sense of the term, sex."
"Again, I was talking about you in reference to more intensity. The investigation was Federal. It involved four states. Knowing now that you have my photo, I am not keen on telling you of the specific states. I lost every friend, contact and family member as a result of this investigation. Some of my closest little girls were questioned by the authorities which broke my heart into pieces. I will never have contact with anyone in my past ever again. I lost my identity when this happened. This was the easy part. The worst was yet to come."
"I 'want' to tell you much though I cannot due to the fact that it has been revealed to me that you now know what I look like. This is a blow to our conversations and to my sharing. Had I known this earlier, I would have shared less - I am sure of it. With that said, I still responded to your mail in full . . .
"Sometimes little girls are closer to me than with their parents or any other person in their lives. When I refer to myself as JonBenet's Closest, maybe now you understand."
"I am interested in telling you anything that does not cost me everything as it did in the past."
FWIW, Mark Furhman mentioned on FNC this morning that this prof is a big Ramsey supporter. I'd like to see the prof's e-mails to the alleged perp.
this guy is so creepy. The emails are evidence but I do hope that the DA has more than this and a confession, can't imagine the FBI and others would have been involved otherwise.
Karr is a very troubled person, on so many levels....
But there is every reason to believe the Ramseys had a more than casual acquaintance with Karr, and there may have been a lot more collusion going on here than anyone has so far admitted.
How would Karr have known Jon-Benet? This was not just a random strike in the dark of night.
I have wondered how this guy acquired the money and travel documents necessary to "stay out of the US" for this length of time.
creeps like him hang out at little-girl-made-to-look-like-a-sexy-grown-up pageants.
Michael Jackson
Peter Pan
Mother had "issues"
This guy's a bag of nuts. I can easily imagine him down on the floor playing with dolls.
And Mama Patsy should have been standing between this creep and her little girl.
Question: HOW would Karr have known the way around the Ramsey house, if he did not have some previous notion of the layout?
Which is why there had to be more than casual acquaintance between the Ramseys and Karr. Karr knew them well enough to enter their house, and act badly in a remote corner where they likely would not hear.
Form what I see if this guy did kill her he would not have had the ability to keep so silent for so many years. many things point to this being a hoax by a nutcase. Unless the DNA matches.
I agree. I think he made it all up so that he wouldn't have to stand trial and do jail time in Thailand. Ten years ago when JonBenet was killed, John lived with his ex-wife and kids in Hamilton Alabama, which is 1289 miles away from Boulder Colorado. John used to claim that he was writing a book and claimed he would frequently correspond with prisoners, investigators, and college professors about this stuff. He used to keep a computer in the house that no one else was able to use.
I tend to agree with that.
Kerr didn't know her...thats the thing. This idiot did not travel around...he was a Bama local...attending college during during this period. If you read his personal history....married at 19 to some 13-year-old girl...which was annulled a month later. Married a bit later to a 16-year-old girl. The guy has a fascination...no doubt...but to travel around in circles where he might have met the family and the girl....nope, it did not happen. He was at the lower end of the economic spectrum....and not the type to fit into the Ramsey level.
This entire story is about his fascination with the case...and a love fantasy with Jon-Benet...who was already dead at that point. Nothing more. The whole case will fall apart in the next 10 days as this becomes obvious. And the charges against him in the US....mostly all misdimenors right now and I doubt he can get more than six months of real jail time. He will be back in Alabama by end of next year....selling used cars. Trust me...this is a certified nut...but not the murder type. And will he marry some 13-year-old girl again? Oh yeah....I will bet a case of Bud on that scenario.
I received this CNN breaking news email earlier:
-- A U.S. law enforcement official tells CNN that the man held in the slaying of JonBenet Ramsey offered details about the condition of her body that have never been made public.
I smell a skunk working the American legal system for all it is worth.And it seems to be working for him.Thailand prisons are not club meds.The investigators should have left him there until there was a clear connection.In the end,it would have saved a good chunk of money.Just my opinion.If he is lying,he should be sent back for some Thai justice.As creepy as he is,I think a lot of freepers would pony up for the one way ticket back.
If the teddy bear has some DNA of his, I'd say it is strong evidence. Otherwise, it's entirely circumstantial. Unless this guy hand-made the doll, it is probably not unique.
Oh, I could see him being the perp in a number of possible outstanding sex crimes with little girls but NOT the one they are hoping to solve. There's just too many very loose ends to make this an open-and-shut case.
I did read the high school entry that Karr supposedly wrote and he does use the same "hooked" a that stood out in the ransom note but not consistently. I have a hard time believing the handwriting is a match but it could with a few more samples to compare against.
FYI
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