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Dallas News
“By CHRISTINA ROSALES Staff Writer crosales@dallasnews.com
Published: 05 May 2013 11:50 PM
Updated: 06 May 2013 12:05 AM
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West paramedic Bryce Reed helped victims escape from the April 17 explosion that killed his closest friend and destroyed his home. He has attended funeral after funeral for his fellow first responders and helped neighbors salvage bits and pieces of their homes.
But now the 31-year-old is buried under the rubble of the painful memories, stress and shock.
Reed has a savior, though, and so do other men and women whose careers call them to disasters where they witness human suffering and trauma. In an effort to minimize these first responders mental and emotional anguish, dozens of volunteer psychologists and chaplains set up their services in Central Texas during the weeks following the explosion.
Theyre rescuing the rescuers, said Reed, who has had a few informal sessions with a volunteer psychologist and a chaplain. Theyre really walking through hell with us to help us get to the other side.
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Theyre very proud of their work and what they do, said Sara Dolan a psychology and neuroscience professor at Baylor University. She has been working to help Reed manage his grief. But theyre struggling with guilt because their job is to control chaos, and some of them were not able to accomplish that mission.
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Reed said that he and his surviving brothers, who assisted with search and rescue efforts, debriefed with this kind of team, telling their stories of what they saw, heard, felt and smelled.
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Reed said he told his brothers that on the evening of April 17, he had been sitting at home with his wife, a nurse, when they heard about a fire at the plant.
The two drove through the area, urging people to evacuate apartments, knowing that the burning chemicals there could make residents sick. Avoiding the toxic plume, they drove to the plant and saw ambulances had responded. He saw a truck there belonging to Cyrus Reed - his brother in every sense of the word except by blood and a firefighter for the Abbott Volunteer Fire Department. They were best friends and shared a name but were not related.
They drove away to continue the informal evacuation and 10 seconds later, they felt the boom.
I knew this was going to be a mass casualty, he said. In the chaos after, his wife disappeared, trying to triage any of the injured.
He doubled back to the plant to assist in searching for and treating any survivors, he said, and then assumed command on the radio when he realized his superiors died in the explosion.
He talked an injured first responder out of the rubble, who informed him that my brother, Cy was dead, he said. His wife, he later learned, was OK.
The rest is a blur.
Slowly improving
Last week, Reed drove around his small town. He saw his place of work was destroyed, his friends houses were leveled all the sadness, reminders of everything he lost surrounded him.
He said he has been feeling like hes been screaming underwater and was not coping well.
But there are counselors everywhere, Reed said.
Dolan and Coppell chaplain Steven Calvert have been his particular comforters.
Ive improved by leaps and bounds, he said. They, honest to God, want to understand whats going on. Sara didnt ask me how Cys funeral went. She attended. She wanted to walk with me underground through the hurt so that she could help me out of it.
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Reed said hes not sure hell ever be OK and hes not sure hell continue his work as a paramedic. He thinks maybe hell be a counselor one day.
Who I was before April 17 has died, he said. I have to figure out who I am again.