“Two things: I’ve never been able to shake the fear (?) that just as soon as I did (offed myself) some incredible thing would happen, right away, that would completely change my life & I would have screwed myself out of it.
The only thing that’s ever really helped a bad funk is nature- watching the critters at our feeders, going to the beach to just sit & heal, someplace with lots of trees. YMMV.”
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We have a lot in common, KGeorge! I want to live a long time because I ‘want to see what happens’, LOL! It’s interesting, you know? Like watching the news or reading a good book!
And yes, I have a bird feeder and love to watch them; yesterday there was a hummingbird right outside.
I also love going to the beach, and I actually live on a street called “Boisvert,” or, “Green Woods.”
I will have to fix up my profile page and put a pic of all the gorgeous trees around my house, and the lovely pond right here, with tons of frogs and lily pads. I am so blessed. Not sure why, but I really am. :)
:-D Theeere you go. And even in the worst of times, we are all so very Blessed. I found happiness (real happiness) in being grateful for what I had, this day, right now, when our first Eskie was thought to have terminal cancer. It was so odd. (We had her another 3 years, until she was just past 15)
Why-because Our Father Always Blesses us. It’s just what He Does. Sometimes, even when we’re thinking it’s something bad, you look back & it’s ohhh. You see what (good thing) couldn’t have happened otherwise.
I’m so happy to see you feeling better!! It really will be okay, no matter what happens. There is no way it cannot, if you put your trust in Him. He is carrying you, even when you think you can’t go on/ can’t stand it. (I’ve learned to tell myself “just be patient”. Because it’s true- if we will just be patient, He’s Working it out.) There’s a little poem kind of thing like this, somewhere.
Were/ Are you on The Right Scoop? Because one of my favorite posters there had a screen name similar to yours.