Keep up the faith Metmom. One thing I have learned in my stage IV cancer at age 41 is that pain, illness, and debilitation are not optional but when we face these things on a scale we never before imagined in our lives we do have a choice to suffer or to endure. I have have chosen to never suffer from my cancer but rather I endure it as God has prepared me and provides for me.
One of the things that’s made this difficult is getting in the company of Word of faith/pentecostal folks who claim that it’s God’s will for everyone to be healed and that sickness is from the devil and God would not afflict anyone with something like that, etc....
But then again, I’ve noticed that most of them are not dealing with debilitating, life threatening health issues.
It’s easy to blame the sick person for lack of faith, sin in their lives, generational curses, something is blocking the healing from flowing, you need to just speak healing and claim it and *walk in it*, that He wouldn’t use suffering and sickness for growth, to make us more like Christ, teach us things, we all ought to be dying peacefully in our beds at a ripe old age, we’re owed 70 - 80 years we should expect that, ad nauseum.
So if I say something about it, they come back with *I rebuke that*, which does NOT make the person suffering feel any better. It just really invalidates the suffering of the person. It really just ends up putting the burden of getting healed on the sick person, which is an impossible situation.
And their theology JUST. DOESN’T. WORK. It is not the answer to the question of why God allows pain and suffering.
I’m sorry that you’re having to go through all that at such a young age. I’d hate to see anyone suffer like that at ANY age, but I’m well past 41 and you are still young.