In your post, you reveal what most Christians face and which the apostle Paul articulated when he said, "We see now through a glass in a dark manner; but then face to face. Now I know in part; but then I shall know even as I am known." - 1 Cor 13:12
In this verse, Paul tells us that in this world he doesn't see/understand perfectly; in this world he only knows part of truth & reality. He also tells us that "then" meaning when he enters eternity, he will know better, he will know perfectly, he will know fully.
We're not much different from Paul.
May the Lord, through His Holy Spirit lead and guide us into all truth.
Here's something you may be interested in: Catholic Charismatic Center
I was aware of the catholic Charismatic organization but didn’t have a address. Thank you, and may God bless you and yours