I can assure you, I don't hate you and I'm not trying to convert you to anything. I was trying to have a conversation with you. Many times, when someone has become disillusioned with something, talking with someone else can help introduce you to something maybe you hadn't thought of before. The Holy Spirit is the one that does the converting, I certainly can't. I was 43 when I was born again, so I can identify with someone who thought a certain way for most of his adult life only to find out late in life how mistaken I was on many subjects.
I would hate for you to go though your entire life agnostic and never know a life in Christ. Believe me, there is no hate here. I realize it a journey you must go through yourself, in your own way. I hope that doesn't mean no one can ever talk to you about it.