If that is so, then the Bagavad Gita is your book. In Hinduism the universe is god, as are you. All is illusory in hinduism. It is an internally incoherent worldview, and given that all of astrophysics, the second law of thermodynamics, Kaalams argument, the impossibility of an actual infinite, the moral law, and the absurdity that the universe created itself all testify to a beginning. In Hinduism (devine universe) the universe is eternal. This does not square with science or Biblical Truth. You might consider a more careful assessment of the devine.
I have no idea who or what is responsible for everything...I just feel that it was not an accident.
in my youth I dabbled in religion...as I grew older, I did not see the creator in any of the text I read...I am an unrepentant, lapsed, Roman Catholic...my beliefs are my own....I do not know why we are here...but the fact that we and everything else is here, is enough for me.