When I was a younger Christian, I thought by the time I reached the age I am now and had so many years as a Christian under my belt, that I’d finally have gotten somewhere in my Christian life.
And I have, but not in the way I expected by any means, nor did I expect to be so confronted with the unworthiness of the gift of salvation that I am becoming more keenly aware of by the day (or by the minute).
I expected to have much more victory over sin than I do and yet the further I go, the more the Lord is revealing to me about what is still in the flesh.
Blackhawks? Pffftttt......
Go Sabres!!!!!!
What you just described fits me to a T. I would suspect most Christians are there too. I also expected to have more victory over sin too, but maybe I just get a deeper understanding of what Jeremiah 17:9 really means. The heart is deceitful above all and desperately wicked. There is no hope whatsoever, for the human heart. The only thing that will work, is for God to put a new heart in us. We have no power to fix our hearts, only God can do it, not because we follow some religious doctrines. He just gives us a whole new nature. Later.
“When I was a younger Christian, I thought by the time I reached the age I am now and had so many years as a Christian under my belt, that I’d finally have gotten somewhere in my Christian life.”
The foot of the Cross is a good place to find everything you need.