I’m very sorry. Marriage is so difficult. I’ve failed while being a great wife like you describe, and I sure don’t want another husband, just a boyfriend with his own life would be great. I never want to have a controlling mean person in my house with me, because I become the victim too easily apparently, always trying to be fair and make things work. Marriage only works if both people give a damn.
I know, I am always the loyal one that gets ditched. Unlike you though, I am super lonely and want someone to love me.