I am truly sorry that people go through this including any of your family members.
If you listen to some of the interviews by David Icke, you can understand the method of subjecting young people to pedophilia goes beyond sexual kicks of the perps. It is a conduit for evil non human entities to somehow/someway gain from the attack, torture and/or deadly sacrifice. It seems the more the terror in the victim and the younger the victim somehow is important to the evil spirits (human and non human) involved.
Pastor Russ Dizdar has been for about 40 years, helping victims get whole by the power and love of Jesus Christ.
http://www.shatterthedarkness.net
Jesus can and does heal people in their heart, emotions, mind and body.
I've been on a decades long search for that healing myself. As a self professed Christian (and not a very good one I admit .........) what's happened to my marriage of 30 years and my two sons through all this has just been devastating.
To watch the mother of two sons be completely unable to form a meaningful mother-son relationship just kills me. All the BS she's doing to me now in divorce court I can handle. I get it: she blames me for EVERYTHING including what happened to her before I ever met her. Her own counselor has told me that. There's nothing I can do here other than to "move on" with my life.
What this is doing to my two sons however makes me want to curl up in a corner and wait to die sometimes. It's that painful
One thing I've found over the last year of my ongoing divorce is that there is, sadly, so many men living in similar marriages. I've met no fewer than 6 other men who also are married to wives that have been sexually abused as children. Most by family members (Uncles, Granfathers (yes "grandpa") and in one case by an uncle AND an aunt together.) In my wife's case it was her own father who raped her for almost three years.
The things we don't know about the women we marry and the family secrets they carry with them throughout their lives is really stunningly tragic.
I'm starting my life over at 54 and finding that so many women I meet carry the baggage of being sexually abused. It's horrifying if you look at the stats. The divorce rate among women who've suffered sexual abuse, especially by a family member is over 80% depending on which stats one believes.
In the case of women like my soon to be ex, it's even higher than that. When that hit me, it was like a ton of bricks: my marriage never really had a chance. How I made it 30 years is beyond me. I still don't understand it.
One more comment then I'm going to shut up as I feel like I'm bearing my soul here: I'm writing a book about my experience. It's from the perspective of a husband married to a woman who's been sexually abused/incest.
I've not found ANYTHING written by men, for men on this topic. I have the outline, foreword, dedication and context of each chapter already complete. It's 16 chapters in length, expecting it to be about 240-280 pages once complete which is targeted to be this summer.
I'm not planning on selling it as I don't need to (or want to..) profit in any way from the tragedy my family is going through. Rather, I'm going to distribute it freely via Amazon Publishing's free platform and other free e-book platforms. I'd submitted the outline, context and foreward along with background and other required material to Amazon Publishing for consideration. They're interested in seeing the final product which again, should be this summer sometime.
One last comment before I take my leave from this thread: I get where you're coming from. Here's the reality: there is good and evil in this world. There is a heaven and there is a hell. There is a war going on between good and evil as I type. Pedophilia is just one of many fronts in that war.
Peace to you.