no need to apologize but you may benefit from not explaining yourself and some of the twisted things you did as a kid to Non-Virtual folk.
They may tend to back off a bit from you.
Disclaimer: I am looking at the pond I grew up around in the 40;s and a 22 LR I had since then.About 5 squirrels and cant count the chipmunks.
Never had the desire to kill something for fun.Damage stuff OK,turtles don’t damage much.
I had some friends that did.You probably can relate.firecrackers in frogs mouths,abuse to cats and farm animals.
They turned out to be drunks hard core dopeers and eventually killed themselves,via drugs booze what ever.Good Luck
I have no guilt from killing pests in my pond that I swam in that would bite my finger or toe off in a second if given a chance, anymore than when I kill an ant or a roach in my kitchen.