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Maybe when he knew him it was before the senseless mayhem and rioting in Ferguson and Baltimore. At 21 he’s not old enough to have seen anything like those riots before and a third of his life has been under a communist halfbreed agitator widely reported as being “black” who has completely effed up everything he touched up to and including race relations by supporting these riots. So for a third of this young man’s life the country has been batshit crazy, and though it has nothing to do with his own failures, this period does coincide with when he spiraled out of control, staying up too late on the internet or playing games in his room and screwing up his sleep habits and in turn his grades. After a while the formerly “smart” kid with friends can’t keep his grades up but also can’t bring himself to start fixing the problem by turn off the computer to study and sleep, so he spends less and less time with family and friends while the grades get more disappointing. He self medicates to fight a growing sense of powerlessness and depression, making things worse.

And like a lot of proud people, he doesn’t want to face responsibility for his failures or give up his bad habits, and looks for a scapegoat. Maybe he couldn’t wrap his mind around the idea of his black friends passing him up educationally and got resentful and jealous, instead of buckling down and studying harder. Maybe he made excuses for the difference in success, thinking they were doing better than he not because they worked harder but because he believed it was handed to them while it was denied to him.
So he started making excuses for his failure- the world, the “man” was out to get him, and for him, the “man” was a black guy. Maybe a black teacher gave him a bad grades because he was underperforming. Maybe when black friends expressing concern about him just as his uncle and other relatives did inadvertently wounded his pride. In his failures he took it as “everyone being out to get him.” And in this sick state of mind he decided to take “revenge.”