Tried to calm them?
Who in their right mind sees a *terrified* child who knows enough to understand “Mommy and me and my family could DIE” with “Stop crying, it’s okay, it’s okay”?”
You say “It’s okay” to a toddler who falls and bumps his head to affirm that the child is okay and that *you* are a safe person whom the toddler can trust to give reassurance that he is safe.
That’s not an affirmation of “God forgive me, I nearly did the unthinkable.” That’s “I’m in control, you can still trust me-—even though I was nearly responsible for your termination.”
That is how I saw and heard the tape.