Well, you decided about your own destiny - no one else. And then there is the Word of God to help one make the right choice and get to KNOW Jesus rather than about Him. And saying what is clearly written in HIS Word and calling it a myth shows one who did not make the right choice.
YOU own it and seem unhappy about it and would rather do a blame game than accept responsibility.
I have accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. You can doubt the veracity of that but it’s really none of your business.