Consider yourself lucky. I felt that way about my husband of 12 years. He passed away almost 10 years ago. I’m 49 and have been on a couple of dates since he passed. One guy I really liked was getting his business degree. Once he graduated, he said he was going to apply for disability. I dumped him. He could fish everyday, but not work? Been single and haven’t dated since then. Oh well...
49 is still young, don’t give up on marriage yet.