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Aurora shooting victim Jessica Ghawi...;was present at mall shooting in Toronto six weeks ago
Twitchy ^ | July 20, 2012 | Twitchy Staff

Posted on 07/20/2012 9:22:50 AM PDT by beaversmom

Incredibly, her final blog post (dated June 5, 2012) was about a shooting at Eaton Center in Toronto in early June:

I can’t get this odd feeling out of my chest. This empty, almost sickening feeling won’t go away. I noticed this feeling when I was in the Eaton Center in Toronto just seconds before someone opened fire in the food court. An odd feeling which led me to go outside and unknowingly out of harm‘s way. It’s hard for me to wrap my mind around how a weird feeling saved me from being in the middle of a deadly shooting.

What started off as a trip to the mall to get sushi and shop, ended up as a day that has forever changed my life. I was on a mission to eat sushi that day, and when I’m on a mission, nothing will deter me. When I arrived at the Eaton Center mall, I walked down to the food court and spotted a sushi restaurant. Instead of walking in, sitting down and enjoying sushi, I changed my mind, which is very unlike me, and decided that a greasy burger and poutine would do the trick. I rushed through my dinner. I found out after seeing a map of the scene, that minutes later a man was standing in the same spot I just ate at and opened fire in the food court full of people. Had I had sushi, I would’ve been in the same place where one of the victims was found.

My receipt shows my purchase was made at 6:20 pm. After that purchase I said I felt funny. It wasn’t the kind of funny you feel after spending money you know you shouldn’t have spent. It was almost a panicky feeling that left my chest feeling like something was missing. A feeling that was overwhelming enough to lead me to head outside in the rain to get fresh air instead of continuing back into the food court to go shopping at SportChek. The gunshots rung out at 6:23. Had I not gone outside, I would’ve been in the midst of gunfire.

I walked around the outside of the mall. People started funneling out of every exit. When I got back to the front, I saw a police car, an ambulance, and a fire truck. I initially thought that maybe the street performer that was drumming there earlier had a heart attack or something. But more and more police officers, ambulances, and fire trucks started showing up. Something terrible has happened. I overheard a panicked guy say, “There was a shooting in the food court.” I thought that there was no way, I was just down there. I asked him what happened. He said “Some guy just opened fire. Shot about 8 shots. It sounded like balloons popping. The guy is still on the loose.” I’m not sure what made me stick around at this point instead of running as far away from the mall as possible. Shock? Curiosity? Human nature? Who knows.

Standing there in the midst of the chaos all around us, police started yelling to get back and make room. I saw a young shirtless boy, writhing on a stretcher, with his face and head covered by the EMS as they rushed him by us to get him into an ambulance. The moment was surprisingly calm. The EMTs helping the boy weren’t yelling orders and no one was screaming like a night time medical drama. It was as if it was one swift movement to get the boy out of the mall and into the ambulance. That’s when it really hit me. I felt nauseas. Who would go into a mall full of thousands of innocent people and open fire? Is this really the world we live in?

Police start yelling again “GET BACK NOW!” Another stretcher came rushing out of the mall. I saw a man on a stretcher, the blanket underneath him spotted with blood. Multiple gunshot holes in his chest, side, and neck were visible. It’s not like in the movies when you see someone shot and they’re bleeding continuously from the wound. There was no blood flowing from the wounds, I could only see the holes. Numerous gaping holes, as if his skin was putty and someone stuck their finger in it. Except these wounds were caused by bullets. Bullets shot out of hatred. His dark skin on his torso was tinted red with what I assume was his own blood. He was rushed into the ambulance and taken away.

More people joined the crowd at the scene and asked what happened. “There was a shooting in the food court,” kept being whispered through the crowd like a game of telephone. I was standing near a security guard when I heard him say over his walkie talkie, “One fatality.” At this point I was convinced I was going to throw up. I’m not an EMT or a police officer. I’m not trained to handle crime and murder. Gun crimes are fairly common where I grew up in Texas, but I never imagined I’d experience a violent crime first hand. I’m on vacation and wanted to eat and go shopping. Everyone else at the mall probably wanted the same thing. I doubt anyone left for the mall imagined they witness a shooting.

I was shown how fragile life was on Saturday. I saw the terror on bystanders’ faces. I saw the victims of a senseless crime. I saw lives change. I was reminded that we don’t know when or where our time on Earth will end. When or where we will breathe our last breath. For one man, it was in the middle of a busy food court on a Saturday evening.

I say all the time that every moment we have to live our life is a blessing. So often I have found myself taking it for granted. Every hug from a family member. Every laugh we share with friends. Even the times of solitude are all blessings. Every second of every day is a gift. After Saturday evening, I know I truly understand how blessed I am for each second I am given.

I feel like I am overreacting about what I experienced. But I can’t help but be thankful for whatever caused me to make the choices that I made that day. My mind keeps replaying what I saw over in my head. I hope the victims make a full recovery. I wish I could shake this odd feeling from my chest. The feeling that’s reminding me how blessed I am. The same feeling that made me leave the Eaton Center. The feeling that may have potentially saved my life.

Our hearts go out to Ghawi’s family.

Some of Ghawi’s friends, colleagues, and readers are tweeting condolences:


TOPICS: Crime/Corruption; Culture/Society; News/Current Events
KEYWORDS: aurora; shooting; toronto

1 posted on 07/20/2012 9:22:55 AM PDT by beaversmom
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To: beaversmom
It’s hard for me to wrap my mind around how a weird feeling saved me from being in the middle of a deadly shooting.

Angels.

2 posted on 07/20/2012 9:25:19 AM PDT by SandyInSeattle (Running in circles and screaming is not a strategy.)
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To: beaversmom
Poor woman


3 posted on 07/20/2012 9:27:30 AM PDT by trailhkr1
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To: beaversmom

I’m now confused. Fox just mentioned Jessica, she’s one of their interns. The reporter said she did NOT go to see the movie... so is she a victim or not?


4 posted on 07/20/2012 9:27:44 AM PDT by SandyInSeattle (Running in circles and screaming is not a strategy.)
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To: SandyInSeattle

When I searched on her name through Google, Jessica Ghawi, I come up with many stories that she was one of the 12 dead.


5 posted on 07/20/2012 9:31:30 AM PDT by beaversmom
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To: beaversmom
Just checked the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation's website and they say she was a victim.
6 posted on 07/20/2012 9:34:12 AM PDT by Gay State Conservative (Poor Barak.If He's Reelected,Think Of The Mess He'll Inherit!)
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To: beaversmom

That’s a shame.


7 posted on 07/20/2012 9:35:57 AM PDT by SandyInSeattle (Running in circles and screaming is not a strategy.)
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To: SandyInSeattle

this girl supposedly is a victim

https://twitter.com/JessicaRedfield


8 posted on 07/20/2012 9:37:42 AM PDT by RummyChick
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To: RummyChick

Same girl.


9 posted on 07/20/2012 9:38:45 AM PDT by beaversmom
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To: RummyChick

From the link:

Mike Taylor @MikeTaylor760

It’s true, my former intern Jessica Ghawi was a victim in the shootings last night. She used @JessicaRedfield as her twitter handle. (cont)


10 posted on 07/20/2012 9:40:32 AM PDT by beaversmom
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To: Gay State Conservative

First thing that came to my mind was “Final Destination.”


11 posted on 07/20/2012 9:41:54 AM PDT by dfwgator (FUJR (not you, Jim))
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To: beaversmom

It appears God was shaking her up but she didn’t get the message. What is truly sad is no mention of God in her blog post, just feel good ‘live life to the fullest’.


12 posted on 07/20/2012 9:51:16 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: dfwgator

ditto- Final Destination

what are the odds?

I hope she used the last 6 weeks of her life as a second chance to enjoy life, given her close call in June


13 posted on 07/20/2012 9:54:00 AM PDT by silverleaf (Every human spent about half an hour as a single cell)
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To: dfwgator

Me too. Exactly.


14 posted on 07/20/2012 9:54:28 AM PDT by wiggen (The teacher card. When the racism card just won't work.)
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To: reaganaut

“What is truly sad is no mention of God in her blog post, just feel good ‘live life to the fullest’”.

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God is being scrubbed, no, eradicated from our conventional daily discourse.

Sometimes I feel awkward even mentioning Him here on FR.


15 posted on 07/20/2012 9:55:02 AM PDT by EyeGuy (Armed, judgmental, fiscally responsible heterosexual.)
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To: dfwgator

Mine too.


16 posted on 07/20/2012 9:55:32 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: dfwgator
First thing that came to my mind was “Final Destination.”

Same here. Freaky.

It's being reported the father of the six year old at the hospital has confirmed she has died. So sad.

I suspect we'll be seeing more of these mass shooting. Best to stay away from places where large numbers of people gather.

17 posted on 07/20/2012 9:56:38 AM PDT by bgill
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To: bgill
I suspect we'll be seeing more of these mass shooting. Best to stay away from places where large numbers of people gather.

You just can't go and live your life in fear like that. Be smart about it, always be aware of your surroundings, but to me that just sounds cowardly.

18 posted on 07/20/2012 9:59:09 AM PDT by dfwgator (FUJR (not you, Jim))
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To: EyeGuy

“Sometimes I feel awkward even mentioning Him here on FR.”

That’s your problem, not FR’s. FR is a God friendly place. Saying otherwise is an insult and a lie.


19 posted on 07/20/2012 10:01:25 AM PDT by CodeToad (History says our end is near.)
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To: CodeToad

“Sometimes I feel awkward even mentioning Him here on FR.”

I think the point was that the culture is slowly making people embarrassed to admit they believe in God. The media and re-education centers (schools) are succefully making people question whether or not they should believe in or speak of a higher power. The victim may well have believed in God but had probably learned in college that in order to have a wider audience appeal (and a job) she had to conceal her beliefs - assuming she had any. I’m surprised people still say “God Bless You” when someone sneezes in their work place or on any government property. I’d bet it’s considered hate speech in every government office.


20 posted on 07/20/2012 10:09:06 AM PDT by carmody
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To: CodeToad

Complete misread of my post.

No slight to my FR intended, or even remotely implied.


21 posted on 07/20/2012 10:11:38 AM PDT by EyeGuy (Armed, judgmental, fiscally responsible heterosexual.)
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To: carmody

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22 posted on 07/20/2012 10:12:33 AM PDT by CodeToad (History says our end is near.)
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To: silverleaf

I hope she used the last 6 weeks of her life as a second chance to enjoy life, given her close call in June

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I pray she used the last 6 weeks of her life working on her relationship with God. How many others are given a second chance no matter how short and waste it? Too many I fear.


23 posted on 07/20/2012 10:15:46 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: carmody

“I think the point was that the culture is slowly making people embarrassed to admit they believe in God. The media and re-education centers (schools) are succefully making people question whether or not they should believe in or speak of a higher power.”

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Precisely. You get it. Thanks.

I deal with people on an individual, highly personalized basis, daily.

I see the Hand of God in the absolute miracle, of which I am a very humble caretaker.

Even mentioning His name, in a casual case summation, often elicits a double take or look of surprise. It may be my imagination, but I find this to be especially pronounced in “educators”.


24 posted on 07/20/2012 10:17:30 AM PDT by EyeGuy (Armed, judgmental, fiscally responsible heterosexual.)
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To: EyeGuy

Sadly true.


25 posted on 07/20/2012 10:17:55 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: CodeToad; EyeGuy

FR is God friendly, however not all of the posters are. Ever see the responses when a Religion thread gets put on the sidebar? It ain’t pretty. There are a lot of posters here who are antithetical to God and faith and especially defense of the Christian faith.


26 posted on 07/20/2012 10:26:08 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: SandyInSeattle

She died.


27 posted on 07/20/2012 10:26:59 AM PDT by PghBaldy
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To: EyeGuy

Fight the “awkwardness”, it can be a symptom of attempted Demonic oppression!

Jesus Christ is Lord, Son of the Living God! Indeed he is God in Flesh!

Make it a daily confession! The awkwardness will subside soon enough!


28 posted on 07/20/2012 10:33:39 AM PDT by mdmathis6 (Not left wing! Not right wing! But....CHRIST WING!)
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To: reaganaut

Some of the most vile people I have encountered are anti-Christian conservatives.


29 posted on 07/20/2012 10:40:45 AM PDT by .45 Long Colt
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To: reaganaut

Then they need out of here. Zot. That said, the only nasty comments I have seen are those posted when Mormons claim to be Chrisitian.


30 posted on 07/20/2012 10:42:43 AM PDT by CodeToad (History says our end is near.)
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To: beaversmom

I wonder what it is she ‘knew’?


31 posted on 07/20/2012 10:44:58 AM PDT by UCANSEE2 (Lame and ill-informed post)
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To: .45 Long Colt

Me too.


32 posted on 07/20/2012 10:53:27 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: CodeToad

If they push it they do get the zot. I’ve seen some nasty comments on the CREVO threads as well as a few others aside from the Mormon threads.


33 posted on 07/20/2012 10:55:08 AM PDT by reaganaut (VAB! Voting against both Romney and Obama.)
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To: EyeGuy

EyeGuy, Never be ashamed of mentioning God. There are still plenty of us who enjoy a relationship with our Savior. I am proud to talk about Him and I think you really are too. Our Creator!Without Him we would not have life. When we confess our sins and accept him as savior, then we have eternal life. I hope that young woman made that choice at some point before she died.


34 posted on 07/20/2012 11:12:15 AM PDT by ruesrose (It's possible to be clueless without being blonde.)
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