[Mr Ramsbotham]

What a useless piece of self-indulgent tripe. She really doesn’t feel bad about murdering her child. She only cares about herself, still, at age 42.

You hit the nail right on the head. At the same time, she's overwhelmed with the inward fear that at some point there is going to be retribution for what she's done.

[kearnyirish2]

“At the same time, she’s overwhelmed with the inward fear that at some point there is going to be retribution for what she’s done.”

She probably sees the retribution already in the fact that she can’t speak the native language of half the people she meets on a daily basis; God will not be mocked, and the meek are inheriting the Earth.