I went from a strong Catholic to a hedonsistic/Atheist lifestyle for 15 years from age 18 to 33, now back to Christianity.
I have some lapses now and then but going in the right direction.
The Bible is full of characters that stumbled in their walk my friend.
King David and Peter “The Rock” come to mind, so do not be deterred brother.
And as we like to say in our church...ME TOO.