>> Why didn’t she realize that Jesus WAS present with her and IN her all along?
Hatred is a repressive vice.
“I still had a lot of anti-Catholic stuff in my head.”
Rather than thinking anyone who has "anti-Catholic stuff" in their heads automatically translates to "hatred", why isn't it simply that she disagreed with a lot of Catholic beliefs? I disagree with Catholicism on many doctrines but agree with them on many. Is my anti-Catholicism hatred of Catholics? Are Catholics anti-Protestant haters by disagreeing with Proestantism on issues?
I used to BE a Roman Catholic and left when I learned the truth of the gospel of grace. Over the years I have only grown stronger in my faith and belief that the truth was not found in Catholicism. I can believe that and defend myself without having hatred towards Catholics.