You reject the Words of Jesus (TRUTH).
Jesus said to them, “Amen, amen, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you do not have life within you. 54Whoever eats* my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him on the last day. 55For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. 56Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me and I in him. 57Just as the living Father sent me and I have life because of the Father, so also the one who feeds on me will have life because of me.
Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven,* but only the one who does the will of my Father in heaven.n 22Many will say to me on that day,o ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name? Did we not drive out demons in your name? Did we not do mighty deeds in your name?’p 23Then I will declare to them solemnly, ‘I never knew you.* Depart from me, you evildoers.’q
The Pharisees are portrayed as a negative example for his disciples, and his condemnation of those who claim to belong to him while disobeying his word is no less severe (Mt 7:21–23, 26–27).
If you could think clearly you would realize that life which can be lost then regained by your fidelity, then lost again by failure is not ETERNAL LIFE. JESUS, God with us, told you that when you believe on Whom GOD has sent for your salvation, you have eternal life then and yet you refuse it. GOD in HIS Word tells you HE is the author and FINISHER of your NEW LIFE IN CHRIST> Your filthy righteousness counts for nothing, nothing at all except your pride.