Good stuff Metmom
It’s hard to reach that point and especially when everything seems to be careening out of control.
You wonder where God is in it all and it’s easy to fall into the trap of the enemy thinking that God is not in control, that He’s abandoned you, whatever.
And that’s where faith comes in. Some day we will walk by sight and that will be beyond what we can dream, but for now, we’re left operating on faith.