How familiar are you with the Bible? God is as consistent and logical as it gets. I highly encourage you to read and muse upon the entire Bible and perhaps it will click for you. Talking with a friend or other person with access to others who can help explain questions would also be useful.
I used to be at least as scornful as you seem to be until I actually heard the Good News of the New Covenant and became saved. Until then, most of the Bible made no sense to me. I used to make my own "rational" conclusions without so much as exploring the subject, reading appropriate passages or talking to someone with more long-term involvement in Scripture. All my questions/objections were answered with a contextual reading/discussion of them.
I grew up in a family that went to church twice on Sunday and of course Wednesday night bible study. Church conventions in the summer. Every other denomination was considered *wrong*. -After I moved away from home, I met a woman who was a pentecostal. She spoke in tongues and her church was considered “holy rollers”. They considered other churches “spiritually dead”. And one day, she had an affair, and left me for some guy in the church who molested our daughter.
So, I'm sure like everyone else who accepts the bible as God's factual document you think you're own church is correct in its doctrinal teachings, but the very people who have been teaching you tgat illogical fallacy have their own dark secrets. And this biblical version of God supposedly uses these flawed beings to speak his message through. Flawed beings who commit grievous acts, of infidelity, murder, theft, rape, polygamy, war, etc.
Sorry, but after looking at the mountains of evidence around me and in the world at large; including watching the current news about little Christian children being beheaded in the middle east, I can only conclude that the biblical version of God is a man made fabrication.
I believe there's a divine , spiritual being in the cosmos, but based on the evidence all around us, it's not interested in yours or my daily life in the slightest.