Your post makes no sense.
It is contrary to the clear words of Yeshua and the apostles.
Especially his favorite apostle, John.
John says that his commandments are not grievous, you say they are.
John says that if you are not keeping his commandments, you do not know him, you say the opposite.
Who do I trust?
That's because spiritual truths are spiritually discerned and the man without the Spirit cannot understand the things of God. They are foolishness to him.