I think you misunderstand. I am a man and was married to a beautiful woman, my college sweetheart from a Christian college back in early 1960s, for more than 40 years. Yes, it was a gay marriage -- using gay in the real meaning of the word until the sodomites have corrupted the definition.
Gay: having or showing a merry, lively mood: gay spirits; gay music. Synonyms: cheerful, gleeful, happy, glad, cheery, lighthearted, joyous, joyful, jovial; sunny, lively, vivacious, sparkling; chipper, playful, jaunty, sprightly, blithe.
I understood you perfectly having had the same gay experience with my dear wife of 48 years who passed a year ago.