Better you examined your notion and experience of grace.
Couple that with an honest assessment of your failure to always walk with the Lord
and I’m sure you would find the answer you seek.
"Better you examined your notion and experience of grace."
My experience consists of examining the evidence for claims others make. Grace is simply favor, a moral quality of kindness extended by one to another. Grace from God was extended at creation, His appearance in person to teach about Himself and as an answer in prayer. There is nothing mysterious, or hard to understand quality about the favor extended by God therein. It is not as the Roman Church teaches a mysterious effect of change in ones condition of soul, which accompanies some mysterious change of mind, mysteriously cleanses away sin and conveys some mysterious power to refrain from further sin. The Church has added qualities and effects that are not supported by evidence and this case demonstrates that.
"Couple that with an honest assessment of your failure to always walk with the Lord and I’m sure you would find the answer you seek."
This is a non-answer, which imputes absolutely either sin, dishonesty, or both to the questioner and contains nothing about the Church's claims regarding sacramental grace.