Danged, if I know. That’s up to God. Read Catholic teaching. God decides fault. God will decide whether you get into heaven or not.
If you are curious about suicide & Catholic teaching. It’s in the Catholic Catechism. 2280, 2281, 2282, 2283. The Vatican has a website & you can look in a Catholic Catechism for >free to you. (All of us Catholics donate to support the Church. >By prayers, fasting, alms giving (money).
Yep ... already has ...
"No man cometh unto the father but by me"
Not the church (ecclesia)