Really? Try thinking it to be something different from what it is.
Remember the book "Crack in the Cosmic Egg"?
This was back in the mystical seventies and the
premise was that our imagining creates reality.
I don't recall how they handled the failure of
alchemy.
I tried it, and now it is a lot different then it was a secomg ago. With all this tninking going on, it will never stop changing.