That’s what I struggle with. Is there a ‘personal’ God that cares about you as an individual. I think there probably is an afterlife and a God, but I don’t think he cares very much about daily affairs on our scale.
Matthew 10:29 “29Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. 30And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31So do not be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. “